1. |
Apotheosis
04:28
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Take what you love most and place it in your mind
What would you be if you were to find,
I can obtain the value for which I’ve fought,
Just a step, and I will reach the fortune I have sought
Look down
They say look down
They say look down;
You’re only a man
Things you can’t know until joy has come and lightened up the things you deserve
(achievement is learned)
And you can’t tear down
Things you can know when your life has brightened up your path to passion and love
(The things you can earn)
And you live right now
Take your best idea and make it meet the day
What would come to be if you were to say,
I can create a fortune from but the air,
Just another step, and I have found the key to all that’s there
Look down
All I’ve found at the bottom here is ground
That’s what they want you to see
I’ve had enough of your insecurities bossing me around
Things you can’t know until joy has come and lightened up the things you deserve
(achievement is learned)
And you can’t tear down
Things you can know when your life has brightened up your path to passion and love
(The things you can earn)
And you live right now
Things you can’t know until joy has come and lightened up the things you deserve
(achievement is learned)
And you can’t tear down
Things you can know when your life has brightened up your path to passion and love
(The things you can earn)
And you live right now
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2. |
Carcass in Contentment
05:47
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But you’ll never hear this song
And even if you would, you wouldn’t listen
You never know what’s going on
You don't know what you’re missing
Yeah, you’ll never know what you’re missing
You’ll never know what you’re missing
You’ll never know what you’re missing
Afraid to leave the hole that you live in
Will you ever know what you’re missing?
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3. |
Seeker
04:27
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Answers
Caught in the hand, driver of man
Wonders
Taker of grays, better the days
For some, it’s enough to idle by
And some seek to find the reasons why
Lusting love and loving life,
I thrust into the sky
I choose to fly
You are a listener and speaker
You, too, are a seeker
Broken heart of gold
Stories bought and told
A seeker, the reacher
Initiator of every dream
You are a listener and speaker
You, too, are a seeker
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4. |
The Drawing Board
05:40
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Something happens every time I’m moving
forward, something always goes astray
Painfully slowly,
back to the drawing board, back to the drawing board
And my mind sinks,
And I recede to shades of gray
Fill my mind
with something other than the pain I feel
Look inside
to find the answer to a love that’s real
My heart is beating slowly, it has nothing left to do
You decide
so tell me what matters anymore
when you tell me goodbye
She would leave without a single answer,
So confused it leaves me stuck in place
I’m rising, falling,
All so conditional, All so conditional
Back to the wishing hole, back to the wishing hole,
stopping mid-track,
it all collapses in my hand
Fill my mind
with something other than the pain I feel
Look inside
to find the answer to a love that’s real
My heart is beating slowly, it has nothing left to do
You decide
so tell me what matters anymore
when you tell me goodbye
Oh, when I see your face I beg to ask you why you've changed
oh, 'cause I can't erase the things I fell in love with and still love to this day
It tears me more each bit you stray
from the goal
That drew me to you in the first place
Until I don't know why I'm asking you for answers anymore
Fill my mind
With all the new ambition I can feel
You will find
There’s something funny ‘bout a thing that’s real
it comes without a warning, pushing everything aside
With every grand new morning falls a wishing hole that’s died
you decide
so ask yourself what matters anymore
if you can’t say goodbye
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5. |
Byzantium Extravaganza
03:34
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6. |
Romantic Phantasm
04:06
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I hate living this game
walking through a dark hallway
not knowing how bitter it will end
and looking back where I came in
A glittering image of perfection
and a freeing vision that she had cared
A ghost of my conception for a heart repair
when I was all alone she was there
Inside this breaking shell
hiding where a wanted life exists in my mind
devotion keeps my heart blind
But truth seeps in from the outside
A painful reminder of rejection
Just a lurking phantom to haunt the air
I can’t seem to catch up or get ahold anymore
a lustful gaze outside before shutting the door
Take it all, break the pain, keep it, I don’t want anymore
There is no pain if there’s no desire, and the dead have nothing to desire for
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7. |
Unholy Sacrifice
05:24
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Do your fears hang high
Do they make you want to cry
Have you shoved it in your eye today
Praying hunger dies
disguised
It’s here you come to stay
You are alone with the dark stranger
Reaching out, hypnotized
He’s fading from his disguise
A crimson stare
It’s here that hunger dies
Do the crimson eyes
of the stranger hypnotize
Would you take them for a rise today
Fading from disguise
It’s here that hunger dies
Take the river run away
in silence
Before this hole you’ve dug becomes your grave
Who are you today?
Bastard son who plays with knives
Cracking though the door
to the stimulant store
Chronic to the core
to decapate more
Lier, the buyer
Fumbling on a wire to hide the slain
Rancid circumstance to blame
Attraction beckons me to the deepest of seas
Everything I live and kill for has become the death of me
Frozen like the ice above
Place is place and love is love
Nothing left to hide
Can’t you see I’ve tried
I can’t change the way I feel inside
Diving free
Down a deep dark sea
How it never really cared for me
And time has sailed away
Now I let go all the things I was afraid
Finally my pain will soon be silenced
But was it worth the sacrifice I made
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8. |
Shadow of the Waiting
04:06
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Welcome to my stale nightmare
It’s lonely inside broken dreams
monotony
Pressure to drive this desperate
passion to become something
That I believe
These hopeless dreams
my human curse
each day they scream
It’s me against the Earth
Bound to sins,
I’ll never win,
I crave forgiveness
Please relieve me
take away this pain
These thoughts drive me insane,
Nothing will drive this obsession
it’s woven to the powers in control
they guide my soul
faithful, my will turned over
my hope remains contained beyond my goal
to the funeral toll
I’m standing in the shadow of the waiting
with the killer of wisdom, killer of passion
you rot away as you spend each day
take your poison and drink it well
The dampened cries of your faded dreams
cannot hear you pray
in peaceful rest
no need to think
pearlescent gates
dissolve to mere belief
those who’ve tried
have watched you die
you’re lying in the shadow of the waiting
I know my day will come
I know my time will come
I’m waiting for my dreams to come
I’ll ask my dreams to come
I know that they will come
I’ll pray my day will come
I know my day will come
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9. |
Fantastic Insanity
04:04
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My mind is dead my feet are sore
Exhausted but I need much more
My dreams are locked in my heart's door
I can't achieve but I can't ignore
And so I don't know how I'm supposed to live
I'm waiting for a time
that's never coming it's not coming
Searching for a sign
To tell me when I can stop running
Stay here with me, stay here with me
Im stuck in my fantastic insanity
Come here with me, and live in this dream
Where no one seems to see the things I see
The distance I have come this far
And sown with every beat of my heart
It's never enough, and I can't let go
And I'm the only one who knows
So what else can I do but just push on
I can't catch up with time
Always climbing always running
I can get so high
Yet I feel like I've done nothing
Stay here with me, stay here with me
And don't mind my fantastic insanity
Come here with me, and live in this dream
Where no one seems to see the things I see
Insanity, fantasy, insanity, fantasy
Insanity, fantasy, insanity, fantasy,
It's hard when days go by
Not enjoying every morning
I always change my mind
Once I see I'll get there
As long as I have pride
I'll be loving as I'm running
And I’ll enjoy this ride
Knowing that my future's coming
Stay here with me, stay here with me
A while in my fantastic insanity
Live in this dream, then you will see
Tomorrow only brings your fantasy
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10. |
Feste's Riddle
01:54
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Hey
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11. |
Cosmic Saga
04:31
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Messenger of the gods flying far and fast
Your shape is short, your circle acute
Scorched on one face that abuse would break
Fight for your life, your shape will refute
Enchantress from Hell
Toxic breath, fairest in the skies, and cruelest of them all
Vermillion clouds hail
Venomous rain
Her cauldron broils, all things befall
A father, a sun, a fire in time
A might in the dark his dominance brings
Though in the verse, only a point
You, giver of life, will kill all things
A father, a sun, a fire in time
A might in the dark his dominance brings
Though in the verse, only a point
You, giver of life, will kill all things
Pale, blue dot in the solar light
Homeland and eyes of the universe
Crystalline seas and the nucleotide
Is this your gift or is it a curse
Painted for battle
A skin of blood, a wound on the land nations-wide
Utopia planitia
marches to war
A brace of apprentices at his side
A father, a sun, a fire in time
A might in the dark his dominance brings
Though in the verse, only a point
You, giver of life, will kill all things
A father, a sun, a fire in time
A might in the dark his dominance brings
Though in the verse, only a point
You, giver of life, will kill all things
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12. |
Beyond the Window
10:37
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Beyond a crystal rind
A vision stole my sight
I guess my eyes go blind
when something shines too bright
Though life behind this window
Is cold beyond belief
I’d bare the void to reap its glow
And grow beyond the reef
My heart is shaken to the core
I’ve never wanted something more
These wings long to spread out wide
I don’t care how long I fight the tide
If I get denied
or if demons hide along the way
Your shine bares a vivid light
That guides beyond the darkest night
The world is black and grey
when you’ve been locked away
In desolation trapped in restless thought
Of all the visions of the glowing light of day
A wonderlust enthralls my eyes
The sight of morning light
Beyond the night resides a rise
True passion will ignite
You’ve got the feeling in your bones
You’re never so far lost you know
So go spread these wings out wide
I don’t care how long I fight the tide
if get denied
or if demons hide along the way
I’ll climb with regretless pride
to see beyond the window
So many years behind these walls
I’ve sown this garden so long
Eager all along to know what it’s like
to be right, or to be wrong
How could I know that this song
would take this ride
The stars align
Your eyes meet mine
And we take a step outside
Take me and these seeds of mine
Plant them where you know the sun will shine
These things in my mind
Have begged me for life for so long now
If you carry my name
All I love every way
And I’ve wanted is obtained
There, one step away
Take my hand
And the dream meets the day
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13. |
Ice Garden
04:29
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Home, I’ve never felt so far away
The things I love are changing with each day
Alone, seems nothing’s really here to stay
‘Cause someone froze my garden and there’s nothing left to save
But loving memory
Oh storm, come take these petals far away
And freeze in time a snapshot of the place we were that day
These seeds that I let blow are finally free to grow forever
I hope that on the other side somewhere we’ll be together
It’s time for my ice garden to be whole
It’s time for my ice garden to be whole
Another garden soon will be sown
It’s time for my Ice Garden to be whole
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